A store without anyone watching ( two months ago)

내가 늘 필라델피아를 찾았는데 이 때는 언니랑 형부께서 Penn's cave에 가보고 싶으시다고 누추한 내 자취방을 찾으셨다. 한 방에 옹기종기, MT온 것 같이 이틀밤을 주무시고 가셨다. 가지고 있는 것이 없었으나 그것을 풍요롭게 느껴주시는 언니랑 형부가 감사할 뿐이다. Penn's cave에서 돌아오는 길. 언니는 야채가게만 있으면 들르고 싶어하신다. 잠시 들른 이 야채 가게. 옥수수를 말려 걸어놓은 것이 시골 어린시절 처마에 걸어놓았던 옥수수를 생각나게 했다. 한 참을 고르고, 주인장을 찾으니 아무도 나타나지 않는 것이다. 포기하고 나가려는데, 작은 상자가 귀퉁이에 있는 것이다. 원하는 만큼 가져가고 돈은 이 박스에 넣어달라는 메세지와 함께. 시골길에 이렇게 가지런히 정리해 놓고, 손님들의 양심에 맞긴 주인을 한 번 보고싶었다. 우리는 커다란 호박을 몇개 사가지고 왔다. 너무 인상적이어서 사진에 담아왔다.
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보이지 않는 대상에 대한 믿음....

A story of a kidney bean and a girl...

This story was in the textbook when I was a second or third grade elementary student (I don't remember exactly).
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There was a girl who was seriously sick. She had to be inside her room always. Once upon a time, she pulled out window drapes. It was a very sunny day. She found a kidney bean stuck in her window. After several days later, a small green leaf came out of the kidney bean. As time passed, the leaf grew and covered her window. The story was ended with a good conclusion that the girl was recovered from her illness due to the hope of life that one kidney bean stuck in her window showed..
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Long time later, I just remembered this story. There are many people who were my kidney beans to give me the hope of life. Before I became a christian, I felt that I might be a thrown-out kidney bean, i.e., I am nothing (not now). ..........
Sometimes, I don't know how/why/for what I am here.
However, now I have a dream to be a kidney bean for someone wherever I go.

Life is too short, not because of myself, but because of people around me

A few days ago, I wished that this year would be over as soon as possible. Continuous bad news stroke me. This year, two people (a friend and a relative) died although they are not old, but even young and kid. Last year, one of my friend passed away because of a health problem. All of these things made me think about life. No one knows when I will finish my life. I got hurt so much. Even worse, nothing looked like in my side. Again, these events are teaching me that life is too short to be obsessed by stuffs which are temporary. Then what will be forever? The life relationship with people will be .... When someone died, I am keeping, in my heart, him or her alive, not stuffs that (s)he left behind. I am thinking of people around me. If today or tomorrow is my last day, there are many people to whom I should ask their forgiveness and many people to whom I want to show my love. This (forgive me and love you) will be my last word.

A sermon (long long time ago)

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We have not stopped praying for you since the first day we heard about you. In fact, we always pray that God will show you everything he wants you to do and that you may have all the wisdom and understanding that his Spirit gives.
Then you will live a life that honors the Lord, and you will always please him by doing good deeds. You will come to know God even better. His glorious power will make you patient and strong to endure anything, and you will be truely happy.
I pray that you will be grateful to God for letting you have a part in what he has promised his people in the kingdom of light. God rescued us from the dark power of Satan and brought us into the kingdom of his dear son. [Colossians 1:9-13]
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Our hearts were designed to find satisfaction in the accomplishment of purpose.

Driving

Last Saturday (Oct. 28), I left home in the early morning. It was rainy from Friday. I got a little bit nervousness with no reason. My itinerary was to visit James Rhee's family during weekend and then go to Alexandria, VA. Right after taking 322 East, my nervousness went away. The view before me was out of my imagination. It was too beautiful to say a word. It was full of awe. Clouds were sleeping under the Nittany mountain. I almost tried to say "Wake up! The Sun is rising!". Driving always teaches me a lession. When I looked at the beautiful dawn, I wanted to be there still by holding the time. But it's impossible. The moment and view pass by me while driving. This is the lesson that I learned. Something beautiful moment that I wanted to hold is passing quickly as something painful is also going away soon. However, these moments (especially beautiful moments) are inscribed in my heart deeply.